Aizuwakamatsu, Japan, Thursday [Daytime]

[firstofitskind]

Time to leave behind the hustle and bustle of big city life and head to somewhere a little quieter! Today we're back on the train and heading to Aizuwakamatsu.

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Re: Amida Temple

[thatwaslucky]

"Not exactly. But it... it wasn't a problem," she said. "I was warned away from that dark side cave and nothing happened. Kanan thought I should have had some bad effects, and nothing."

Re: Amida Temple

[sith_happened]

Anakin hummed thoughtfully. "Are you sure there's nothing?"

Re: Amida Temple

[thatwaslucky]

"Like what?" Rey asked, so, so warily.

Re: Amida Temple

[sith_happened]

"That's for you to discover, I'm afraid," Anakin said, making a face. "I can't go in and say if something's wrong. I can only judge on actions."

Re: Amida Temple

[thatwaslucky]

Rey was quiet for a moment, and this thought maybe freaked her out more than anything. "So I could have just been carrying something around with me this whole time?"

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[sith_happened]

"It's possible," Anakin said, "but you have to slow down and look."

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[thatwaslucky]

It was not possible for Rey to express how much she did not want to do that.

"Okay," she said.

Re: Amida Temple

[sith_happened]

Anakin gave her a sympathetic smile. "I know you don't want to."

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[thatwaslucky]

"I'm not rushing to do it," she admitted.

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[sith_happened]

"No one wants to look," Anakin said, "but a Jedi who doesn't know herself can be manipulated more easily by the Dark Side."

Re: Amida Temple

[thatwaslucky]

"And what if I don't like what I see?" Rey asked. "Then what?"

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[sith_happened]

"Then we work on it together," Anakin said. "I'm not leaving you to fight this alone."

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[thatwaslucky]

That maybe panicked her a little.

"There might not be anything to fight," Rey said, because she'd at least like to think she was good.

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[sith_happened]

"Is that what you really think?" Anakin asked.

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[thatwaslucky]

"I don't know right now," Rey said. She'd been fairly solid on that before Friday and now she was sort of worried she was secretly a monster. "I hope so."

She was really, really very much not a monster.

Re: Amida Temple

[sith_happened]

Anakin sent a wave of reassurance towards her. "The Force is balance--both light and dark. You choose what part you channel."

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[thatwaslucky]

"And that's the important part, right?" she said.

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[sith_happened]

"That the essential point," Anakin said, nodding. "Nothing but you can make you turn one way or the other."

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[thatwaslucky]

"That helps, at least," she said.

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[sith_happened]

Anakin smiled. "You'll be okay," he said, "but not if you avoid looking."

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[thatwaslucky]

"Did you ever look at yourself like that?" Rey wondered.

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[sith_happened]

Anakin nodded. "I thought of that part of myself as a krayt dragon--they're huge, native to Tatooine, and terrifying--and never, ever went near it until it was far too late."

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[thatwaslucky]

"Did it feel like a krayt dragon to you?"

Rey definitely didn't feel like she had a krayt dragon.

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[sith_happened]

"A small one, at first, easily ignored," Anakin said. "But there was always fear. And I was told very, very early that fear led to anger, anger led to hate, and hate led to suffering, so I just...didn't allow myself to look over there. And that was a mistake."

Re: Amida Temple

[thatwaslucky]

What if you just started out with anger?

"What would you have done about it if you looked?"